Never Ending Thoughts

So I have discovered this week that I never stop thinking... And with all of the things that have been on my mind lately, how can I? 
Matt told me this week that he's going to try and join the navy. My mind has really been trying to process that... It's really hard for me to think about though. The thought of him leaving for so long and the only way for me to reach him is through letter is really saddening... It's pretty scary too. I know that we can make it through anything, but it's still painful to think about... :/
Plus, I STILL haven't gotten caught up on the work I missed last week when I was sick. It really sucks... It seems like every time I turn around I have something else missing in the grade book. I have two quizzes that I missed in history class that I was supposed to stay after school and make up yesterday but I forgot and suddenly remembered it when I was halfway out to my mom's house... T_T"
Not to mention this time of year is kind of hard for me due to some very personal things that happened in my past... It was a certain loss that I went through that I still haven't quite gotten over yet. And honestly, I'm not sure when or if I ever will. It was a very devastating thing. All my friends or anyone who has heard my testimony will probably know what I'm talking about here. 
However, even though I've been dealing with all of that I do have some good news to share with you. So I have this book that I've been writing for about two years now. It's called Vampires of Manova. At the beginning of this year I had began working on the very last chapter in the book but when I got my rejection letter from MSA, was too devastated and broken up to finish it. Well I had been thinking about it a lot lately, and last night I finally made myself sit down and finish it. :] So it's done! The only thing left to do is go through and edit it best I can. And then, if I can find a publisher to go through, I'd really like to get it published. This is a great accomplishment and I am so proud of myself for finally doing it. If you'd like to read it just contact me anyway you know how to.
~K♥